Christmas time!

Christmas time!!!!!!!! That time of year again where you look forward to family time, loads of food and lots of good times. Unfortunately its not going to be the same this year as grandpas really poorly and he will be in hospital over christmas. Never had this before. This amount of grief and upset in my life. Hes not going to get better so have to come to terms with it i suppose. Why is there always so much sadness that surrounds christmas or is that luck just reserved for my family? I should be looking forward to Santa coming for the girls sake but it took me to put up the tree this year and they are picking up on it. They havnt even asked when christmas is. So we are going to see SANTA on saturday and then a tour of the streets with the brightest lights possible... I just hope its raining so we can all just sit in the car listening to the rain and wathcing the flashing. They are going to love it! Hopefully that will make them all excited for the week ahead and take my mind off things for an hour or so. We also got engaged 2 weeks ago. It was the most amazing weekend ever. I was surprised with a weekend to Edinburgh. The time we spent there was perfect and there at the top of Edinburgh Castle all my dreams came true in the space of 2 minutes. Was on a complete high then came home to the worst phone call I have ever had in my life. Your Grandpa has cancer AGAIN and hes in hospital. Thats been our life really for the past 2 weeks up and down to the hospital in between that recieving cards and best wishes. He seems to be doing better now and able to get out of bed which is a huge improvement so things are looking as positive as they can at the moment and now we are back to christmas, back to the present wrapping, kids singing carols, making cards and hats for the big day!  Im just so lucky I have such a wonderful, supportive and caring family around me. That whats christmas time is for me.... being with the people that genuinely love me, be it well or poorly!!!!